Same.

[OldBaldy1701E]

Whenever I see some of these 'big name' types performing I just feel like a big hardened turd.

I also have the same thought. 'That should have been me.' Of course, now I cannot do it. I have all but lost my singing voice and, thanks to my fucked up body, I cannot really play much anymore either. Most of this came about because of my desire to never attempt anything as a performer again. That happened because I had finally given up any hope of ever having the life I wanted to have. Or even the life I should have had, or even a life with one accomplishment that pertains to what I wanted out of it.

It eats me alive every time. It was all I wanted.

I should have known that my curse would not let me succeed at anything.