Koz here,

[kozar]

I'm so tired, my living situation depends on Fl.
I'm just done, dreams of Lil and Mrs K.
I'm ok to leave.

Koz

[cate94]

1. I'm sorry

It is so hard right now.

[questionseverything]

2. I'm sorry you're having a hard day, it's hard to lose people you love

But at least you had them here to love for awhile 🌺

[bluescribbler]

3. I am so sorry.

I can't imagine your pain.

[no_hypocrisy]

4. Sending you love.

Stay with us one more day please.

[Easterncedar]

5. Oh Koz, please know we care about you

[surfered]

6. Peace ❤️

[Walleye]

7. And the early darkness makes everything feel worse. Good to hear from you. Hang in there.

[kozar]

8. Will wait until Fl let's me go in my car.

Had my episode, got through it. They letting me drive, but won't let me live, where I want to live.

Koz

[SheltieLover]

9. So sorry things are tough for you right now, Koz

I hope things start looking up for you very soon!

[1WorldHope]

10. Koz, what is Fl?

[IbogaProject]

12. Florida

He was living up in or above Clearwater above Tampa Bay.

[soldierant]

13. I'm guessing "Fixed Income"

but it took me a while with the "Abbreviation Finder" until the light dawned.

[Grim Chieftain]

11. So sorry things are not going well, Koz

Hang in there and reach out to your DU family. There are great people here who care and support you. Even when you feel most alone, you're not. Hugs and healing vibes to you, dear friend.

[Warpy]

14. If you didn't miss them, you might forget them

You don't want to do that, do you?

Is the kitty still aroumd? She could be a great comfort while making few demands on you when you're the most tired.

We still love you even if Florida doesn't.

[kozar]

18. Warp, friend,

I'm tired, have to walk with a walker, can't sleep well.. I'm just tired..
Thanks for the reply



Koz

[kozar]

19. Kitty passed as well

[otchmoson]

15. Another despairing Floridian

I'm sorryy for your losses, and sometimes these bad days are just overwhelming. My coping mechanism . . . get through an hour, theen shoot for two . . .. then three. And project, "maybe this time tomorrow will be better." I figure there has got to be a reason for my almost-four-years on the planet.

[kozar]

16. almost-four-years on this planet?

Maybe voice recognition, gone bad.. but thanks

Koz

[otchmoson]

20. Whoops--

almost eighty years on the planet

[kozar]

17. To all my friends on here,

My OP stated , leave, which became live.
Leave meant, I won't fight anymore when.my health fails me, I'll just let go, and leave.

Koz

[1WorldHope]

21. I hear you Koz. Tell me if I'm confusing what you are saying.

It is natural for people to want to encourage others to cheer up, tomorrow could be better. I've spent much of my life loving older people and I have known many people who welcomed the end of this experience. Pain, mobility, nobody left that you know and love. You're not saying you want to kill yourself, but, when it comes to you, from today's perspective, it may be a welcome relief. Am I in the ballpark?

[kozar]

23. Yeah, I was always the positive person

The caregiver, the provider, etc
I'm just tired, and now my body is failing.
I just don't have any fight left

[1WorldHope]

25. Are you no longer at home?

[kozar]

26. No,

I'm still in aftercare from my stroke. Not sure what happens after this.
I keep hearing phrases of " you don't need to live alone"

[1WorldHope]

27. Do you want to live alone? Is your home gone?

[applegrove]

22. WYAGTH - KG

When you are going through hell - keep going!!!

[kozar]

24. Ty ,

And sometimes, you need to stop, and fight.
I'm tired of fighting. And , too tired to walk.

Koz

[Easterncedar]

29. Caregiving takes a real toll on our hearts and bodies

You worked so hard for your wife and L’il Bit. Care can wreck you, even when all the while you are grateful for the privilege of the work and sharing the love. I know.

You are valued here. Please at least keep talking to us as you can.

[Permanut]

28. Everybody's story is different,, everybody's days are numbered..

Thanks for sharing your story with us, you can see from this thread that we hurt for you. May your walk with us be longer.