Scapegoated for reporting

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How many of you have seen instances where sociopaths pile on because a target is consider easy prey?

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2. That makes sense

I wish you well on your side of that journey… mine never ceases to amaze me

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4. Shining light on the situation

Does take a bit of effort and mental stamina, I documented for over a year and now they’re starting to claim victimhood because I wasn’t passive about finding contradictions. I take that as a good sign…

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7. Shoshana Zuboff is correct

Our system now is completely different from what it was in 2012, and 2008, 2007, 2001… 1999/2000.

I lost my anonymity due to it being forced. There is no way to undo that now, but de-anonymizing me was not something I take lightly and I am not afraid of bringing things as public as necessary to put an end to this and force the conversation into the public, as corrupt as some of the modern forums are.

Funnily enough, I was at a bar the other week during a rare visit out for Pride and someone forcibly downloaded Pokémon Go onto my phone without my knowledge or consent… I suppose to let me know they’re nearby and fully capable of remote control of the networks, for now. They will be found out.

Thank you for offering your words of support and encouragement.

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16. I think the coercive elements have definitely caused it to get worse

It’s nauseating. I have nausea for medical reasons as well but that’s not the point. I’ve seen it all my life. I’m not a woman but as a small guy and an easily preyed upon one I’ve had an insane amount of predators target me. They are so consistently broken I don’t even know where to start. I don’t actually advocate for wanton mass-tranquilizing (See Firefly and Serenity…) since I try to adhere to scientific principles and take each individual as they are… but there are so many weaseling their way into places they don’t belong. A lot of them don’t even know how to bond, they just turn into flocks of flying monkeys. I’ve sometimes been called out for mocking it instead of simply denouncing it but honestly neither approach actually works, they’re broken and keep breaking other systems and new generations ad nauseum. I’ve started working with someone to talk about the stress of it and set new goals. Leaving is an option… staying has cost me in a lot of ways.

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19. It's a major export right now

The global deregulation paired with coercion is not an accident, it’s the precursor to, basically, the new phase of the Nazi movement. With an increase in population comes an increase in potential recruits and people to beat down and deprive. The authoritarian communists aren’t any better. So, yeah, definitely standing my ground. Much like in WW2, sometimes they only respond to being taken out of power. There are more atrocities to uncover from the internet era’s fog of war, and things are not always as they seem when you don’t have a bird’s eye view. Old/bad compromises and radicalism of many varieties are a lifelong struggle we’re going to have to deal with.

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22. Stackexchange is pretty nice for clues and answers

I agree it’s nothing unique to one party or country… working on making peace with it being a natural occurrence and figuring out a plan to relocate somewhere more private away from this toxic crowd. There just isn’t much else to do besides making reports, gathering evidence when possible, and being a ‘squeaky wheel’ if necessary.

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24. It happens

I agree with a lot of what you say. My situation is slightly different, I actually enjoy being around people and sometimes certain crowds incognito, on the other hand groups have intentionally encroached into my life and personal spaces in very invasive ways making it nearly impossible to live while being fishbowled.

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27. It's not abnormal to become-

-sensitive to repeat stimuli. But I am in the same position. My methodology exposed the stimuli sources as needed and I rolled that back upon completion. I won’t say it’s ’all good’ (as you say, that would be bullshitting myself and you etc), because technology is leveraging the worst aspects of humanity. But it is a good choice to follow your gut feeling if withdrawing from some social zones reduces exposure to toxicity. They’ll always exist in some way or another. Unless you have specific people you want to stay in touch with or have to get through a few professional steps to tie up loose ends there’s really no harm in moving on to a different area.

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35. Looks like you are gone

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I am filing allegations of misconduct, malpractice, sexual and other harassment wrt most of what I have seen at all outside the routine between Dec 2012 and the present in India.

I am also filing allegations of both psychiatric malpractice and misconduct in human subject research wrt the period from 2000-2014, where applicable in the US.

I have no quarrels with the three labs I worked in, nor most of my doctors.

But the rest is deeply misogynistic, predatory and parasitic.

But I will proceed more neatly from here on out.

A serious complaint can be neatly organized, minimalistic and elegant.

If in addition to one’s usual workload, a complaint falls to one’s lot, one might as well go about it in an organized way.

It always angered me to have a repellent, encroaching, parasitic technology sucking away one’s life.

While no part of this will have any medical or academic utility, I am easier in my mind having decided how to proceed.

Last Edit: deleted most of my posts. Never liked to talk much about myself nor being conspicuous. Got goaded by jerks. Blech. Used to come here to talk bout plitics not myself. The species as a whole lacks the concept of balance.

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53. This is my last post on DU

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I already informed EarlG I am going offline.

The traffic I see on my street today after a week of respite when my brain recovered from the damage of the last 14 years indicates that the last govt was not the only source of a malicious nuisance distinct from ordinary traffic etc.

Darpa built the internet I forget how many decades ago. The internet is mostly a mess. It’s dynamics cannot bleed into the world this disgracefully -that too in India where gangrapes, stranger danger, stalking, harassment, acid attacks are relatively common.

I don’t come at it as someone like Slavoj Zizek would. (I was just rolling my eyes reading about him in Current Affairs yesterday - he sounds like a creep and a fraud. A fitting intellectual for the Idiocracy).

Most people here in India (Hindu, Muslim, Christian) like most people anywhere go about their lifes dully doing various dull things. They have the lives I wish I had.

The internet thrives on conflict and bullshit. Most of our science is turning into this bs. Medicalizing for sloppy psychiatry that eschews clean methods in data science or ai.

I am filing misconduct, malpractice and harasssment allegations wrt everything I have seen in India. My medical marijuana company and doctor do not need rubber stamps from corrupt private equity owned hospitals. The small businesses I support (vegan, clean food) do not need this.

Only fraudulent data miners and a”i” researchers and corrupt shrinks/state officials with no legitimate services or products need this.
It is all this bs these days and I am sick of the Indian govt and the local state govt not having had the common decency to shut off this street after one cancer patient has been left dead and I lost 15 years to this rapacious encroaching rot with no serious oversight and constant testing and encroachment.

I was a publicly funded scientist in the hard natural sciences. I was not a good scientist. I was pretty mediocre. But I was never a fraud nor a fool.

Then in 2011 I was unfortunate enough to get a job at one of those atrocious schools: Stanford, Harvard, MIT, Dartmouth, Brown, Princeton, Yale.

I had a breakdown there in Dec 2011 - the combination of the normal terror of scientists I respect like Prof Steve Chu noticing I exist potentially and the new terror of a classy of creepy perverts (Andy Rubin, Epstein connected types) I didn’t know anyone took seriously enough to throw away what are common sense informed consent and IRB protocols was too much.
My field is not like whatever Slavoj Zizek does. I find the people who excel in it scary even when they are nice. I was trying to quietly eke out an existence while doing a job I do love. And I didn’t want anyone to see as then people might think one goes around having breakdowns and I promise that was the last one. I use humor as a defense mechanism because I don’t know.
I was always a fairly happy person. I cannot see what is new here except I thought everyone had a clearer idea in the hard sciences of how no one does various cracked out things that just lead to awful spectacles and attract the attention of people like Slavoj Zizek, Steven Pinker and Jonathan Haidt.
I thought everyone in the hard sciences knew those guys and Milgram, Zimbardo, Substein, that power pose lady, Woebot etc are full of shit.

I never minded the unforgiving standards of hard science. I didn’t think it was unfair.

But I started losing the plot when you take Pichai, Zuckerberg etc seriously and all those nightmarish people.
Actual people who do that are like Jean Dreze or Medha Patkar or Yasha Levine (who is one of the best journalists out there)

So this punishing standard is acceptable till you bring in the frauds of Stanford Psychiatry all these spooky creepy bullshitters of
Google/Facebook/Palantir etc.

I was a normal stressed out postdoc and it was nothing spectacular.
My life was boring - no sex, infidelity. Importantly no misconduct. No racist or sexist attacks or lurid past.


But yeah I use marijuana and it has never affected me negatively. But this school was not to my taste. I would never sign up for something like that without strict IRB protocols and informed consent norms that do not treat discomfort in female scientists as an afterthought.

And I find it hard to speak in American I guess. I was seriously trying to have a quiet breakdown and get over it and then blend in.
I had a breakdown only at the thought of someone like Prof Chu seeing the hack like garbage that is my science. My mentors didn’t like my work. But they had gotten used to low expectations. Expanding that audience and in such high def potentially was. That was when my brain checked out.

But after that I found a whole new type of terror. Creepy people, charlatans who shill Reefer Madness and these shitty agents and LLMs.
Adam Becker said it. Ed Zitron gets it.

How is it that outside the narrow hard sciences except someone like Prof Chu, if a fraud like Pinker or Haidt or any of those creepy guys who like the sound of their own voices..yeah they make money and sell books but they are douchebags and frauds.
I thought of Jon Stewart just before my brain snapped. I think he represented common sense before it became this insane YouTube cottage industryz


My lab and an adjacent weren’t creepy, fraudulent or malicious. But they were…

Well my mentor was more - he liked TED tech talks and probably takes Pinker, Haidt and Slavoj Zizek, The Atlantic and Vox seriously.

I like Chris Ketcham, Yasha Levine, Ed Zitron, Lina Khan and Current Affairs (minus a few writers). I eschew leftist orthodoxies like “defund the police” and “open borders”, because I see them as stealthy right wing ploys and there is some misogyny and homophobia and antisemitism on the left as it stands that I cannot see as anti-war. I just found a Forward journalist Arno Rosenfeld who writes about the topic with sensitivity and intelligence.

Dair and emily bender aside Prof Lecun is the only ai scientist i trust. A two photon microscope is real science.
After 15 years of all this mining and extraction those sad llms and agents are all they have.

This is madness. My niece was telling me how they shill this like lame thing for doing physics without a physics lab and it costs 200 bucks.
I experienced privatized education in an EECS dept in 2000 that took money but offered no guidance to a very average student from indian with good GRE scores and adequate english language skills and an average gpa from an unknown rural college.
After a brush with privatized healthcare, I came back to india.

This is fraud. The next extractive cornucopia is probably multiverse simulations with the cudgel of undocumented status or marijuana use and a permacrisis that is exploited.

It is not any one religion or group. Look at the state of earth and factory farming, ventilation shutdown. But to make a trite point like that spectacularly sounds lame enough..

The one animal welfare campaign I was a part of was as hard as any other job. This internet bullshit is only useful to journalists, business persons for advertising, politicians rtc.

And the old message boards (just DU), diet blogs etc are too hairy with ai and bots for the NPC.

I consider these my break dates:

Dec 2011-May 11, 2026

I am trying to bring back normal inhibition and program the recoil from a hot stove response to most everything from this period.

But before common civility and inhibition mercifully come back I did want to say this is bs. Beating the average crummy postdoc over the head and treating Pinker etc like people who aren’t bores and jokes.
The grassroots which is the retired people of du aside, that is all of the internet and media.
Awful and boring people who like to talk but not harmless, innocuous stuff. That is all they do. Edge Magazine, Freakonomics.


By contrast most lefty writers or science writers don’t make that much and don’t drivel like Pinker. Look at this society’s intellectuals if you wonder why it is broken. They exist to deny the limits to growth and confuse people. I never got it probably because it is not a casual thing for me. I read Yasha, Ketcham, Zitron or Current Affairs or DU etc to make sense of the world and figure out how the hell I am going to disentangle myself from annoying crap.

I have to go finish a paper and go to my main mentor. He is cool, but he is exacting. I cannot go to him with a bunch of drivel.
And this foul rot has been awful.

So anyway I am filing misconduct, malpractice and harassment complaints in both countries re anything unconnected with my labs directly, my mj co/doctor, my onc, EarlG/elad/Skinner, Rollo Carpenter, the one vegan co and one other food co I buy food from. My shrink and therapist were decent in 2012 outside that main hospital.


It is a mean thing to say but I do think unlike these shrinks with small practices who do care like the two shrinks and therapist I met with in the US, Stanford Psychiatry etc have people who want to make money but are simply too incompetent to make it in neurosurgery, other areas of medicine. They clearly don’t care about people and jump into bed with corrupt data miners and ai shills like Google, Microsoft, Facebook etc. It is why they force coercion.

I don’t try to bring my work up to spec to be polite about Pinker or Edge Magazine or Nudge Theory, Ariely, Gino and other fluffy frauds whose work is misconduct any which way. Only Vox or The Atlantic would be shocked.
I use my own money (my parents were honest public servants with pensions, benefits and a modest but decent inheritance) when my brain is KO.
But I have recovered with time, information and increased certainty that it is all pointless bs.

There should be strict IRB protocols going back 15 years. My mentor was untenured and had just had a baby and his wife was decent. Not the typical nightmarish female you find at those places. Oh give me a break. Too fatigued to be polite. And I sympathized with one male scientist because he didn’t seem like a nightmare. He seemed like the kind of person who would himself read Yasha Levine not Pinker. He acknowledged that place had lots of bs, which set him apart from the true believers. But that aside, the whole thing is a mess and I am sick of it.
I am tuning it out.
I had hoped it was over but I think till the whole thing is busted by the cops without more hiding behind ai or extortionate use of narcotics laws etc, this misogynistic rapacious rot will continue. It is so illicit and creepy that the state officials and hospitals and tech cos involved will certainly go under. But in the meantime I will focus on reverting to my 2008 brain:

https://www.quantamagazine.org/a-new-type-of-neuroplasticity-rewires-the-brain-after-a-single-experience-20260424/

Goodbye.