I'm a depressaholic

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3. excellent insights.

i have been super, super fortunate that i have been able to arrange to have a life that has a lot of inescapable joy. the meds help, but spending my days on my itty bitty farm, full of silly dogs, chickens, homegrown tomatoes, growing things, and hard work have made things so much better for me.

it is easy to slip into the funk, tho. i have fibromyalgia, and pain, fatigue and depression are a viscous cycle that i am grateful as hell to have effective meds to treat. i spent many years wrapped up in that ball. just seeing it as a disease and not a ultimate proof of my worthlessness as a human being is the kind of self talk that you refer to.
when all is said and done, tho, that blue funk is home, is comfort. it is so damn easy to go there.

thanks for posting bt. everyone is welcome here.