Im so angry and full of remorse.. guh! 😭😡

[FirstLight]

So I had to rearrange the living room impromptu, power went out and I had to figure out how to get the fireplace to work again. Which meant that I had to pretty much move everything off of it, which also led to me having to move a lot of my exes crap out of the way and into the trash.

I'm just gobsmacked at her crap and hoarding everything I just keep finding crap everywhere journals that were only written in one or two pages, coloring books and word puzzles for no reason just shoved in a ottoman. A waste of my money, and it's all just garbage.

What really sent me over the edge was a journal that she had written in recently. One of the prompts asked are you in love and she said no and that she didn't love me. And the other prompt asked what her dream home would be and it was nothing to do with us it was all about her and what she wanted to do with my money...

It just reinforces my thoughts that the whole relationship with a scam from the start and I took pity on her and brought her to my home from across the country because I thought that we had a relationship. And when she got here she just settled in and drove my children away, and twisted my brain, and if she had succeeded in killing me that night, she would have gotten everything because she got me to marry her.

I'm just angry so angry and it makes me want to cry my eyes out I hate her so much I can't even express it in words I'm just sitting here sobbing...