I've had exactly one nightmare free night this week.

[Siwsan]

They pretty much all run along the same theme. Me needing help but everyone just ignores me or watches me struggle. Even the people I know I can rely on for help. I wake up, exhausted.

Last night's as a doozy, adding abandonment to the list. Oh, and people laughing at me. That's a common element.

My next appointments aren't until next month. I'm just going to have to add the Klonopin to my daily routine. I've been trying to just go with the Buspar but, obviously, that is not sufficient.

I really need some coffee.