Been feeling like drinking more recently... [View all]
I've stopped binge drinking over a month ago due to exhaustion and bad liver numbers I got from my DR. I'm just about to have my 2nd blood test to confirm that those numbers have gone down which they should have by now. Sadly I've been feeling liking drinking again of late. Feelings of depression and failure and hard to put down. I've also cut my SSRI that I was on from 1.5 pills a day down to 0.5 pills a day. I don't believe this has anything to do with this however as I was doing the most drinking when I was talking the larger dose and if anything I feel slightly better now than I did at my worst about 2 months back. The Hawaii holiday I just took was fantastic and I didn't feel any depression or anxiety on that trip at all. Now that I'm back though I'm forced to deal with the reality of my situation and 'the world' again. I'm set to see a new psychiatrist this coming week, but it's that horribly rated one that I talked about before. I'm going to give him a try and see what he says though I'm sure it will just be pills pills pills and little listening. I know alcohol is a depressant and makes things much worse in the long run. But dam if it doesn't numb you out and there's no mistaking the buzz it gives you, something that is hard to resist when you are depressed and think as lowly of yourself as I often do.
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