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ThingsGottaChange

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9. I rarely post

Mon Aug 11, 2014, 09:56 PM

Aug 2014

I have major depression, all the anxiety disorders and probably PTSD, from childhood sexual abuse. Meds don't work for me. I'm having a very difficult time with Robin William's passing. I never get emotional over a celeb's death. But, I can't stop thinking about how bad it must have been for him to (supposedly) take his own life. I think about suicide every day. And all I have are two cats that keep me going through this nightmare. He had a wife. And children. How tormented must he have been. My heart is just breaking for him and I can't stop crying.

I am not a believer in the 'suicide being selfish' theory. So, please don't go there. My sister ended her pain the only way she knew how. I will end mine the only way I know how, as well.

Sorry for making this a blubbering whatever.

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HeY! check in! [View all] irisblue Aug 2014 OP

I do as well rox63 Aug 2014 #1

thank you sister irisblue Aug 2014 #2

((rox63)) irisblue Aug 2014 #12

holding my head above a shitstorm. mopinko Aug 2014 #3

((mopinok)) irisblue Aug 2014 #11

thank you mopinko for checking in irisblue Aug 2014 #4

i have been really sick, too. mopinko Aug 2014 #26

Mo, you have children. murielm99 Aug 2014 #34

that has totally kept me going all these years. mopinko Aug 2014 #35

Give it time. murielm99 Aug 2014 #43

i am hoping to come back as a dog myself. mopinko Aug 2014 #44

I have Depression libodem Aug 2014 #5

thank you for checking in irisblue Aug 2014 #6

Thanks for rallying the group libodem Aug 2014 #13

I am slowly learning not to give a hoot about what others think irisblue Aug 2014 #17

I try not to care libodem Aug 2014 #30

I have the whiner fear as well, libodem ThingsGottaChange Aug 2014 #23

It is a good chance to practice our listening skills libodem Aug 2014 #24

so funny you say that. mopinko Aug 2014 #27

((libodem)) irisblue Aug 2014 #10

I'm very sad about this. hunter Aug 2014 #7

thank you for checking in irisblue Aug 2014 #8

here is to the glow of a friendship burning behind you. mopinko Aug 2014 #28

I rarely post ThingsGottaChange Aug 2014 #9

A celebrity death libodem Aug 2014 #14

It's not so much that it's a celebrity ThingsGottaChange Aug 2014 #20

((things gotta change)) irisblue Aug 2014 #15

Iris is my favorite flower :-) ThingsGottaChange Aug 2014 #22

i love irises, too. mopinko Aug 2014 #32

he was a part of growing up for me. mopinko Aug 2014 #31

I have major depression, anxiety, and panic disorder. Terra Alta Aug 2014 #16

((Terra Alta)) irisblue Aug 2014 #18

hey there ta mopinko Aug 2014 #46

checking in fizzgig Aug 2014 #19

((fizz)) irisblue Aug 2014 #21

i haven't really had a good night's sleep in two weeks fizzgig Aug 2014 #25

sleep is all. mopinko Aug 2014 #29

still checking on y'all... irisblue Aug 2014 #33

Checking in . . . Still Blue in PDX Aug 2014 #36

((still blue)) irisblue Aug 2014 #37

4am a la izquierda Aug 2014 #38

((a la izquierda)) irisblue Aug 2014 #39

Thanks, I probably will a la izquierda Aug 2014 #40

hang in there friend. how did it go? mopinko Aug 2014 #45

I'm about five hours from my family... a la izquierda Aug 2014 #48

huge panic attack today irisblue Aug 2014 #41

yes you will mopinko Aug 2014 #47

Still alive. A wee bit hypomanic and loving it. Dreading the cycle back around though. GreenPartyVoter Aug 2014 #42

grab what you can, i guess. mopinko Aug 2014 #49