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3. Hello friend!

So, thanks for spilling the beans, you've already made a successful move in doing so.

You are clearly intelligent and you know what else you are? Self Aware.

I too, am self aware of my own issues and I find that it is a blessing and a curse. What do I mean?

Well, self awareness allows us to step outside of the box of our mind and acknowledge the fact that our emotions are because of something else, and not ourselves. We are not fully in control of our minds and YET, because of that self awareness, we're capable of observing our pain rather than being FULLY controlled by it.

It does certainly handicap us at times, but because of our ability to rationalize, we can live with it.

That's the blessing part. And I do know the curse, as I'm sure you do as well. But I'm not here to slog you down with the bad that we already know. I want to reassure you of the strengths that we both have that we both have to be reminded of at times.

Just to relate, I too, have been a victim of sexual abuse, and I suffer from hyper cycling rapid bipolar disorder. My parents were basically separate all my life, they'd just spend their days watching TV in opposite sides of the house. We never ate at a dinner table together and I constantly witnessed "divorce scares" as I called them. They physically fought, I feared for my mothers life on many occasions.

But here I am and here we are! We're still breathing, we have not truly lost at all! May we never lose sight of that!

I send you electronic hugs from my keyboard now!