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[CaliforniaPeggy]

4. You have so much on your plate, and I'm not sure what to say.

But DU can be and often is, a family. Reaching out here is a good idea.

Stick with the psychiatrist is my first thought. Being an MD and hopefully a healer of minds is a good combo, esp. since you have physical issues that complicate your mental ones. Hopefully he will find some drugs that will work.

My second thought is that you're not alone. Hopefully reaching out here will bring others with similar histories here to help you and themselves.

I'm sure you're tired of all this. You may be thinking suicide might be a good option. Some folks call it a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Not having walked in your shoes, I hope your problems are truly temporary, even though they sure don't look like it now. Give the psychiatrist some time. Tell him what you're thinking. Don't hold back. Let him see your pain and how it impacts your whole life, mental and physical.

And I apologize if I sound condescending; I sure don't mean to. Please take care of yourself. You have gifts that maybe you're not aware of yet. You need them...so do we.