A question if you want to answer. What caused you to deconstruct from your religion.

[cksmithy]

71. It began when I was 8 years old sitting in church,

listening to a prayer being said, by a man, and I repeated in my head until he was finished, "Shit, shit, shit." I had never even said shit out loud, ever. From that point on I was repeating shit, shit, shit in my head while sitting there listening to the bs I was hearing every sunday. I never even said shit out loud until I was a teenager. It took a long time for me to become an atheist. I am very happy now.
My psychologist/therapist told me when i was in my 30's (I am now 74) told me how my story was very similar to Carl Jung story. Apparently, Jung had a dream about god defecating on a cathedral. Anyway my psychologist was impressed and got a good chuckle from my childhood story. It still happens to me when I inadvertently hear a prayer, like at a grandchild's graduation.

Being spiritual is a very good thing. I have spiritual connections to nature, my pets, and all sorts of animals over the years, and of course my family. I am the only child out of a family of 6 kids, 2 deceased parents, that is now an atheist. My 3 brothers are true believers and my one sister, who is still alive, thinks there is a higher power but is not sure what it is. I think that's fine and we get along great. My brothers are Trumpers, or that type, woman are just for procreation and housework.