Two years out.....

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Feb. 5th will be 2 yrs since my wife died. I felt sure I would have found somebody by now and be on with a new life. Yeah, well that aint happening. I haven't even had a date in about a year. It's not because I haven't had the opportunity, it's because I just haven't had the desire.
My parent's (83 and 80) health started to deteriorate about the same time my wife died, and I have spent most of my time taking care of them. They should be in an assisted living facility because both are feeble, can't drive, and neither one is very mobile. Mom has rheumatoid arthritis (in a wheel chair) and my step dad is suffering consequences of radiation therapy for prostate cancer and diabetes. They have so many doctors it's mind boggling! But, I want them to have a little more time at home while they are both still alive. Either could go at any time, so I have spent a lot of time with them. I'm the only one they have for the support they need, so you do what ya gotta do.
Between their needs and maintaining a large house on 4 lots, there's not a lot of extra time, but it keeps me busy and my mind occupied. I count my blessings because I have it pretty good other than the time factor. It just gets frustrating at times.
I had convinced myself to take control after my wife died and make things happen rather than waiting for something to happen. Well, that's not always the best course of action, I found out. So. I am reserved to just keep on keeping on.

I know a lot of you might be in similar or worse situations, so be assured you are not alone. We do what gets us by. I am thankful we have this medium to vent our frustrations and can relate our stories to each other. It really does help.

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