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69. Income, Access and Social Obligations

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My last mentor paid me and gave me access to information (which has largely reinforced my understanding that a combination of corruption and deregulation and human stupidity)

I dislike talking. I associate it with people like Haidt and Pinker who I think are why these societies are this broken. It is not that the things I posted or wrote positive or negative are not things I believe.

I know though that I have not posted anything racist or hateful. I am wary when I am perceived as having an automatic affinity for any group - like other Indians (I would avoid most Indians the way I avoid most people. And find people I would find trustworthy in context at the same rates).

But the reason for talking is that, these systems have a disconcerting habit of sharing/concealing solely in order to provoke.

I deleted stuff that is other people’s work. I like to boost other people’s work. Not grab it

These are independent conclusions I came to

1) There is a healthy and a diseased version of most concepts. You can have a healthy version of “atomization” which is most people my friends on the left (who have been a source of comfort) somewhat cattily mischaracterize as “the libs”. I understand that sense of betrayal. I feel it about tech people. But the reality is that there would be decent people in tech but unless it was a Hemanth Kappanna, they rarely stand up to their CEOs and I don’t want more illicit construction. And this permacrisis using metaphors like “vaccines”..lol
This has been darkly comedic and its role is not sad derivative comedy and bullying but to mock these tech CEOs till young people etc don’t see them as cool. But as the Idiocracy. It is not an isolated and unwell person (I am not going to protest too much as I am back to normal) you should be mocking but these Zuckerbergs and Andreessens.
And I have been very angry myself. But the change of a govt has given me real hope that now that the new govt is not yet entrenched

We have an implicit understanding as humans of the dynamics of reality. Someone who is nor yet implicated in this and finally grasps that that cannot be politicised and monetised beyond real work to shut this down without exploiting it at all.
I have nothing to gain by exploiting this and everything to lose if it doesn’t get shut down.

I also get (DUer Marble Falls’s post - I have been too drained for more that concepts that register permanently. It was not his quote but because I read and support DU I saw it.

What made DU exceptionally safe for me is it is mostly retired people not influencers. Yasha Levine, Chris Ketcham, EarlG, Current Affairs etc have built in non-parasitism. And I am trashy enough to enjoy Salon Magazine. I was never very fancy but a little junk.
I did notice that something about decent sites stays one’s hand wrt just handing money over.

Substack is an indecent site. But it is correct that one should pay and support writers and journalists whose work one supports. I just don’t buy that Substack is the way. I think Current Affairs and Truthdig etc are the way.

I wish the money and time I lost could go to things I support as I am not Ellen Pao and I do plan to file complaints. But I hate waste and I wish it could go towards the deserving not the parasitic who should pay fully and face jail time. That is the only way CEOs and their flunkies will learn.

I never liked the model of free. I like commensurate things. Peter Thiel calls that Malthusian. It is neither Kumbayah nor group wars.
Those guys would never be competent on even ground and they like it if you use thought terminating cliches that inflame people.

Surely we all want a life of peace and quiet where we are not handing everything over to some creeps with mediocre products and defense contractors and the still confused parasites who don’t get that I am not talking to them. I am talking to Yasha Levine, who presumably understands crowds. I don’t.

Matt Cerami got it re Carlin but it is exhausting to look for universes. And I would be severely depressed if anyone was looking into my head for science as it wouldn’t found.

I do not think quality work can come from No Exit.

The left has failed because of protests that are noisy and go nowhere. And slogans and ..

It is lame but they are not even good manipulators. The left is full of curmudgeons who avoid the spectacle and those are not punch lines.
I have spent close to 15 years in various wastelands hopelessly.
It cannot be content. When someone is saying that I am going to police for my life having been ineptly used by inferior shrinks, inferior social scientists and inferior content creators, influencers and maliciously “creative” artists and malpractitioners..


I feel bitter every time I hear idiots on my street. It is the inferior gambit of someone with no talent or sense to overwhelm a person with aversive sensory

I will keep wanting to bitterly go back to plain fare
But it is not love. It is the same process that made appreciate good science that has worked.

It is ridiculous to have a society where you live in your cocoon to that extent. But humans I follow and not inferior tech have taught me in unclear but definite ways. Where I cannot know the people, I attribute the overarching group.

I said to DUer Orrex and then deleted it because except in this thread (it’s not sexual assault or whatever but I don’t feel like myself if my musings are not at least in that

This is at least a low cost way of a leaky dynamic of Ulysses adjacent..lol.
The inferior stuff will have to be dealt with for the good stuff to survive. We are a ways from thriving.

I have now 33 years of memory as a privileged person with a happy and supportive network (EECS aside) and 15 soon as oppressed (by stupidity. I never give those guys the satisfaction of directing it the way that is so useful for them).
You see I want to go back to being middleclass and having just enough with some comforts and a little trash. And I understand how they work.
I am furious about the gossip that made my Muslim gp become very cold to me overnight.
That garbage is politics and not even my politics but the generic rot that older people follow. People who have a stake in the people in war zones are not the ones

Yes anger needs an outlet. But the anger of someone upset by their life is different from some influencer exploiting it because they are as empty as that woman in Beef season 1 or the couple in Beef season 2.
When I am on my feet I will attribute all my influences.

I have very positive feelings about the people I follow but it is wrong that it is love - which sounds suspicious as a concept. I associate love with fornicators and scammers I suppose.
The real thing is pretty bleak in this landscape where it is unclear how a meaningful income can result without

I have been depressed at the potential in better off less stressed people with experience and wisdom that some jackass with a new ..this one thing -old people! It is not just about meanness. It is that all some of those guys will mine are anger and hate. Some can have mine.


Some are too inept for more than just kicking the table over when they lose. Thats the type that one cannot defeat. Because once it is just brute force and irrationality …


I have no interest in war. I am interested in peace and that requires targeted consequences and repercussions with due process relatively fast.